running, running, run.
a puff, some words done
No breaking needed!
Some might claim the jury is still out on whether vaping is actually safer than cigarettes, and while it may be misguided, everyone is entitled to their own opinion on things. What I know, with some certainty, is that smoking cigarettes AND vaping is probably the worst idea in the world! So why do I find myself doing it?
I have been smoking on and off for a while, but it was only within the last few years that I started taking smoking more seriously, like actually having to buy my own cigarettes. I found comfort in the idea that as long as I was not buying them, I must not have a problem. But, inevitably, it became a consistent habit. I became accustomed to taking a break from work and school to take a few long drags. And it was good.
Then, right in the middle of this routine, I decide to buy a vape. As my “enchanting” story about acquiring my first vape might indicate, I wasn’t necessarily brimming with anticipation to get over the cigarette habit. But I gave it a try anyway.
Now I have this rather interesting problem. I sit at my computer, doing god knows what, and within arm’s reach I can take a drag. After a few hours, though, I find myself thinking, “Hey! It’s been a few hours. I should take a break.” It only took one day where my will was particularly weak, and the day had been slightly more annoying than usual, that I stopped at my local gas station and picked up a pack. There was a strange sense of self-righteousness in that act. You have to be self-righteous to not feel like a complete idiot.
So the struggle continues. Obviously, smoking a cigarette, or puffing on a vape, is about more than just a chemical craving. But what do I know? I’m no psychologist.